Days of my life
It was Tuesday again, which meant training day. After a whole day of lessons and project discussion, I was finally geared to go for training. I was rather early and started to talk with shifu and some others who were like me(nothing to do). Lol... Anyway, we went through the standard stuff and I partnered with Lisa. She is a good partner who knows how to motivate me and at the same time correct my mistakes. Unfortunately for me, my determination is alittle faltering as I once again slacked at one corner. So time went by and I was rather envious that those that are fighting nationals are training so hard. I wished that I had the mental strength to overcome my fear of my opponent and actually train to battle. It was only when time was almost up that I decided to do some non-contact sparring with some guy from elsewhere. I think I did pretty ok, but not fantastic though. I know it wasn't a fair match as I was much lighter than him and my speed is faster than him. So though I felt great having at least a chance of scoring, I knew that this was not going to be the case during nationals itself. Dilemma.....................................................................................................................................



24th August 2005

I am starting to feel bogged down by all my work. I know that I have alot of catching up to do and that I have not been extremely productive. However, I have been meeting various groups of people everyday of the week to do projects, even Sundays. Some of them I enjoy, others I find to be a drag. This is especially the case for my M464 Design group. Things are just not progressing as I hoped to do due to 1) Difficulties in Communicating (1 China, 1 Indonesian, 2 Singaporeans) ; 2) Destructive Suggestions by the China guy. Omg.... super turn off....

All I know is that I sit down infront of my laptop, knowing that I have lecture notes to read through and tutorials to do, yet I m typing away at some project presentation slides as well as preparing for the next day's discussion material. I feel so burnt out.

In addition, my love life isn't that smooth sailing. I feel lonely and kinda tired. My roomie sensed this and we had a heart to heart talk tonite. I m very glad to have known Weiming as a friend who is willing to lend a listening ear even when I know he is dozing off. Hahaha.... Anyhow, I just hope that I will find that someone imperfect to complete my imperfect life so that we can one day become 1 perfect unity. :P

Ok, enough of my whining and complaining. I know there are people out there suffering more than I do and that they need more help. So I should just pick myself up and move on with life. I wan others to see me as the spark in their lives and not be the dull grey spot that tarnishes their memories. :)