Some Shocking News
It was 8 am in the morning when my handphone went off. In my disorientated state, I read an sms about a friend, about someone passing away, about attending a wake. I thought that a friend's family member passed away and that someone was informing me that they would be attending the wake. With that, I slept till it was around 12 pm and I woke to start to do my projects and assignment. I reread the sms and found out that a JC aquaintance passed away yesterday. This shocked me as I did not expect someone my age to just leave like that. Actually, I have when a University friend of mine was knocked down by a car while cycling back to school.

Anyway, what really shocked me was that I found out he died due to suicide. Though the idea of death and released has passed through my mind before, I never really had that courage or insanity to commit it. Come to think of it, if I had the courage, it would be freaking scary if you are reading this updated blog of mine. So to someone who has the courage to jump off the top of the building without harness, I guess he was at his limits and had no idea where or who to turn to. But then, it doesn't seem like the right thing to do.

So, I met a few JC friends and paid our respects to him at the wake. We were not close to this guy, and we were all at a lost of words to say at the funeral. I did not feel particularly sad nor was I emotionless, just did not know wat to feel at that time. Maybe I m a beast in human skin. I dunno....

I realised that there were many people at the wake, mostly friends he made in primary, secondary, JC, Army and most of all University. In my mind I was thinking that he doesn't realise how fortunate he is that there are so many people that consider him as a friend and maybe more. Problems are not to be dealt alone, rather, they should be shouldered upon the backs of family and friends. Each of us carry the burden and sorrows not just of our own, but also that of others. However, problems of others will never bog us down, while our own problems are actually lighten with the presence of friends.

Anyhow, we all left for home after staying there staring into blank space for half an hour. It was a weird night. One that is to be remembered of a friend and not of his foolish acts.