Pattern Team Training
It has been 4 weeks since we formed Ee-jang team 2. Initially, there were lots of problem in recruiting members for the team and it really took us alot of effort to get things going. There were comments by some people, saying that Ee-jang team 1 has stronger members and undeniably, these comments did bother me alittle. However, I also believe that I am capable of training a successful pattern team and that my members were in fact just as good if not better than that of team 1.

I mean, during selection, there were people in my team that I wanted to recruit, but was told that they were chosen to be in other teams. Hence, I left them out. But it turned out that they were not, so.... I guess fate went round in circles and we are back where we started.

I know that not everyone was very willing to be in pattern team and it took alot of persuasion from Candace and me to get them to finally agree. But, right now we are a team. Regardless of whether we are going to win a medal or not, we are a team. Yet, somehow I feel that the drive and the team spirit is alittle lacking. The drive to accomplish a gold medal seems to be waning with each training.

I admit that it is impossible to maintain focus throughout every training and for the full duration, but it is really really ridiculous if the trend goes on indefinitely. My temper is getting from bad to worse with each training and I really don't want to lose it. It doesn't help the team, it doesn't help me, it doesn't help the morale. Yet, I find that the team is not progressing as I expected.

Individually, the members all have their flaws and good points. But when you put them together, the flaws seem to outweigh the good. I just want to have a productive and fast training, start early and end early. But cannot....

I nag and nag and repeat myself so many times, they do the pattern over and over again so many times. Don't they feel tired? Can't we just complete this once and for all??? Sigh... sian u know???

I starting to doubt whether I am a good AI and whether I am doing the right thing. Honestly, my social life is so screwed right now and my timing is so messed up. Yet, I have attended every single training and doing my best for the team le. Is it that I am lousy??? I feel disappointed in a certain sense.

Not that I am saying that no one is putting in effort. I can tell who is putting in the effort and who is not. It is very distinct when someone is wandering off in space. You can also tell who is trying their best at every single set. Don't they feel guilty that their team members are giving their all, while they themselves are not?

Honestly, I saw minimal improvement in the team. Most of them are remaining stagnant or deproving. This is really disheartening....

Ee-jang!!! Can u all prove to me and to the others that u all are the best? I have faith in u guys and i know u all can do it. Just trust in me can???? Trust in urselves can???? No use only me and Candace throwing all we can in, but not receiving any response. Mentally very exhausting for us u know?

Ee-jang are u ready???

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